都是为了她，都是为了她，都是为了她，都是为了她。。。

当他的生命不再为了她而跑，当他的记忆不再容纳着她对他的好，
当他的爱因为她而失去微笑，当他的世界已经没有了她给的照耀，
当爱情与生命被划上了等号，就算曾经度过的美好已经不再重要，
他想她会过得很好，也希望她过得更好，却在她记忆刻上记号，
可惜时间已经慢慢揭晓，可惜世界对他已不重要，
所以他选择逃跑，所以他选择不要，所以他选择放掉，
这个曾经为他而好，这个曾经为他而耀，却没能让他引以为傲的世界。


这篇是给予当红面子书却已不在人世的帅哥。他已经做了他的选择，我也没有理由作出任何指责，只希望他做了这些之前是经过深思熟虑，因为他已经没有回头的路了。希望大家在做出这样的决定之前，都是已经清楚了后果。因为我们爱的是别人，别人爱的是我们，我们如果因为没有了别人的爱而感到无助，相同的别人没有了我们的爱也会感到痛苦。这样的举动，会让爱我们的人，心口永远留下伤痛，再背上被世界指责的痛。这样的我们，还能说我们爱的人还是我们爱的人吗？

Stranger.

Today i've met my friend, which i suppose him as my friend.
things started to annoy me since last night, when we went to choir practice together, noticing his bad mood and then things seems nothing wrong until the choir ends. i wanted to stay longer discussing something, and halfway i noticed that he went back without me, leaving message to one another friend of ours, saying he needs to rush back to do assignment. OK. Fine. i assume that's true.
and so, today, i accidentally met him in front of the lecture hall, he can not seeing me, which i have no reason to persuade myself that he just missed looking at me. im just so disappointed. with all the accumulated events, i decided, to make him my stranger.

I have no rights to fault myself... Because I missed the chance to say I love you...

I used to love myself a lot... i was such a darned boy, who is always full of confidence...
i doted myself more then everything else, i never cared about anybody...

i was such a boy, which i had even challenged a teacher's knowledge, the arrogance within me, made myself avoided by so many friends...

until one day, i met this girl, i started teasing about her name in the first few meets. she was so mad about the tease and she started to enemy-lize me...

if i wonder, what made us together, i will say its fate, because no one will like a boy like me with the stated characteristic, and she didn't like me either. but somehow, fate brought us together into a choir team, and we stayed close for the next 3 years, until my age of 15. then fate brought her closer to me, making her the same class as me in the science stream for SPM. She is in my class for the 2 years, i started to be not so arrogant, not to be so teassy, not to be everything bad. i started to learn to be a good friend, she became my first ever close friend! things goes like close friends until one day, after graduation, in my national service camp, the 2nd week inside the camp, i felt the feeling, i missed her so much... i really missed her, every moment without her was torturous for me. this is the first time, i called her, using a public phone... i said i missed her... and i forgot the exact situation, and somehow, i started to say that can i like you? or did i say will you be my girlfriend?
she was being nice, and thought i was joking... she said dont joke, its impossible,... and i stressed that im being the most serious time for my lifetime.
everything didn't turn out good when she said that, just one week before me, an anonymous, she said he was the guy working in front of her handphone stall had asked the same question like me, and surprisingly she agreed to the guy! for the time i missed in the 5 years, and the 2 weeks i missed in my national service camp, made me waited for this 2 years... im only able to put her inside my mind, inside my heart... im not able to speak everything out... she made everything of me to be not like me, and she made everything not like me to be like me...
so now, the feel remains, the love remains, the difference now is, the every second longer then that day, 10.1.08, the love gains weight.in my heart, there's always a room for you, in the deepest corner today. until he leaves you, i will return you the master room, hoping that you will be willing to stay in my house, as the owner of the room.

Whose fault of the tragedy?

I saw news article today, and some video clips widely shared in facebook, about the horrible accident which caused 12 deaths... the video clip was rather awful, bloody scene... then of my curiousness, i went to Chinapress.com and understood the event occurred on October 10, 2010. A meaningful date, 10/10/10 became the most memorable day for the 12 victims' family... in my understanding, the accident happened like this:

Venue: KM223.2 of the North South Expressway, Seremban, near Simpang Ampat, 7:45pm

According to a chinapress, there's a chinese woman aged 28 with the same sirname of mine, in chinese pronunciation, Lu was heading to KL with her boyfriend. She was at the most right of those lanes, theres a black MPV in front of her, synchronized speeding with the bus. whereas in the middle lane, its the bus and a national-made car following it.

Lu's boyfriend, was driving at the speed of 110km/h, roughly 100m from the bus driving at estimated 90km/h by Lu. She also said that the bus was driving straight, which doesn't seem like driver feels sleepy.

She saw the bus dodged to the left, and head of to the crash barrier and then to the opposing road.

she suspected a car whom failed change its lane into the middle lane and caused the bus to crash off to the opposing way after slight damage to the car, ramming into 5 cars of the opposing side.

The indian driver of the said car, has got down from his vehicle and drew out a girl from the car, whose supposedly terrified by the accident.

Lu's boyfriend,  immediately change to the middle lane and avoided incurring into the accident.

Because the lack of evidence, people now are blaming each others for the fault.

Some of the victim's family accused the driver for irresponsible driving speeding.

The long distant bus company, Delima, said that the guardrails are to be strengthened.

The menteri said, the bus manufacturers should produce quality bus with a better frame which would withstand stronger impact.

For whoever or whatever, please be calm and stay concern about the problem, the bus crashes again.

Blame games are boring and unnecessary because it will build no benefit to anyone.

Instead of blaming, please be considerate, accidents happens everywhere, anywhere... sometimes, these accidents are not blamable, because accidents happens... in fact, the bus accident rate is not the most serious matter on the road, as we also have mat rempits causing much trouble than the buses does... causing more innocent people to lose their life.

however, i would like to express my sympathy towards the victims and to their families, when 10/10/10 ruined their lives and life.

风与海

一个人在海边
风很大　吹乱了我的头发　也吹乱了我的心情
突然之间全部心情都涌上心头　很复杂　很乱
会想朋友　会想家　会想她
 来这里是要念书　却有无尽的思念
放不下的过去　来到这里变成我的负担
扛着包袱　看似轻盈　却是那么沉重
快走不动了　想不走了　又觉得失责了
我只是个学生　不是送包袱的
 为什么一定要带着大家的期盼　期望　寄托　走呢
有时候　累了　坐下来　看看身边的小草　劲风吹　弯下腰　再大的风又能怎样
反而看看那些大树　越是年长越是坚硬就越会倒
因为它们要撑托的是多么的繁重　要是能放下一切
 为自己而活　将会是多么的幸福…

我只好离你远远。。。

想当天，一时冲动，就说出了口。完全没有理会到她的心情。
她问：我有没有男朋友有那么重要吗？
我说：对，因为我想更了解你，怕你男朋友打我。
她回：你今天怪怪的哦，你确定你是志宏吗？
我说：对我就是。
她答：你不要开玩笑了啦，一点都不好笑。
我说：如果我是认真的叻。
她说：不可能，你喜欢我什么？
“我就喜欢你傻傻的，................”
就这样，把人家吓着了。
“可是我对你没有那种感觉，.............”
我愣住了。怎么会这样，竟然没想过人家的感受？在干什么啊？！
结果就找了他，哪知，在另一端，她也找着他。
还原本打算不要告诉他真实的事情，却在另一边她也在告诉他同样的东西，问着我是怎样的人。结果，他，马上就刺穿了我。还说我说得慌很瞎。结果又让人家知道了。
原来是这样，隔天，去接一位中国留学生来我家，想说过夜，因为在家里太闷了。
在路途上，开着车，他嘻皮笑脸的问着我，你和他什么时候开始，还原本打算装傻，却装不下去，因为有人告诉了他。事隔12个小时，就已经传到别人那里，没有别人，只有他知道，所以就只有他。那天开车中，因中国人的要求我让他开了车，差点送我上路。哈！。。。。。。。。。。。幸好那辆车后没有车跟着来，不然就真的。。。
事隔一个星期，学校开学了，她回来了，之间都不回我信息 。不再像以前一样，长篇大论。会的都是几个敷衍的字眼。终于，我遇到她，想跟她说话，结果都不敢，都没有说过话。
直到最近，才有了一点转变，渐渐回到从前。下次我不会这样了。我懂了，不知是要照顾到自己的感觉，对方的更重要。看着一张喜欢的脸，却什么都不能做。见面了却什么话都不能说。只能默默地，假装没事，就好了。

人心，真的难测。。。

大家可曾遇见知己？
大家可曾遇见朋友？
大家可曾遇见路人？
大家可曾遇见坏人？

当大家遇见他们时，大家的想法会是怎样？
今天，我们先谈坏人，以后，在接下去其他的。。。

遇见坏人，应该是很讨厌的，有时就算是没有遇见，也会讨厌的人就是坏人。他们面目可憎，一脸欠扁的样子。最好是马上就死掉，免得污染世界的美好吧？每个人的心中都会有坏人的，即使你多么的不想承认，坏人总会出现在我们的世界里，破坏我们生命的美好。这就是坏人的角色。 但是为什么，坏人是那么的可憎，可是还是有那么多人选择作坏人呢？为什么坏人总喜欢破坏人生的美好呢？因为坏人，顾名思义，就是不好的人，他们总喜欢在我们的痛苦上建立自己的快乐。。。打趣点，就用经济理论来解释好了。因为他们有需求，需要建立自己的快乐。可是可悲的是，他们太穷了。他们没办法在自己的朋友身上找到快乐，对他们而言，朋友太昂贵了，买不起，所以自然的，朋友的需求就不成立了，因为，需求的条件里，其中一个就是条件要有能力拥有，需求才能成立。为什么朋友会那么贵呢？因为，社会对朋友的需求量高，所以市场平衡点的价钱比较高，也比较贵。。。所以，他们就去寻找其他人来建立快乐，一个比较便宜的资源。所谓人之初，性本善，也性本恶，当他们建筑快乐的时候，他们就必须决定建筑快乐的基地。坏人，之所以变成了坏人，是因为他们选择建筑快乐的基地在痛苦上。所以,当他们看见别人痛苦的时候，他们就会变得很兴奋。性本恶的人，他们就是可以不择手段，千方百计地把人善给击垮。他们轻则偷东西，重则偷人心，践踏人心，似乎就是他们的工作。有时候，千方百计地，他们可以讨你欢心，又千方百计地将他们能够将你抛弃。诋毁人心，似乎是他们的首要嗜好，既然我们改变不了世界上有坏人的事实，我们能做的就是尽量避免碰上坏人。而避免碰上坏人的方法，就是不与人接触。再借一句，所谓，三十六计，走为上计，既是，逃离，就是应变的最佳方法。所以，再次劝请大家，请远离人类。因为人类是世界上高度危险的动物。

因为有你，所以有我。。。

 时常，我们都为了一些意见而跟自己中意的人争吵，
偶然的，我们会说出一些伤他们心的话。
我们，在拥有他们的时候往往都不能及时珍惜他们，
而常，我们都是等到失去他们的时候才来后悔不及。。。

因为有了他们，让我的存在有了意义。
因为有了他们，让我的存在有了乐趣。
因为有了他们，让我的存在有了方向。

一切，所努力的目的，都是为了他们。只要他们还在，我就不能让他们失望。。。

特别献给：
Wong Ling Xiang
Eyok Wun Sim
Chung Yee Hong
Regina Ngooi
Mizuops
Nancy Yap
Jiaowei Chong
Kam Yit Kean
Cristo Tan
Sim Beng Xiang
Bred Lee

Those who thinks that they are outlisted, please tell me :).

我的，第一次。

小时候整天绕着妈妈转的时候已经过去了；
小时候嚷着妈妈买糖果的时候也已经过去了；
小时候乱着妈妈买玩具的时候更加已经过去了 。

为什么，小时候可以做那么多的事情，而人渐渐长大后，可以做的事情就越来越少呢？
为什么，小时候可以做那么多的事情，而人渐渐长大后，却可以渐渐的事去那些权利呢？

就因为，长大了以后，我们曾经，已经，将会拥有，
以前所不曾想拥有过的东西。

友情，在我的定义，是两个人，在他的利用价值范围里面的一种联系。
朋友，是尊贵的。
朋友，是可遇不可求的。
这一秒，你和他是好朋友；
下一秒，你和他可能是敌人。
朋友，不一定是要以心换心，
但要求以心换心的，并不能是朋友。

爱情，在我的定义，是两个人，在各自的生活中开始产生紧紧相系的开始。
爱情，是盲目的。
爱情，是无知的。
两个人，"明明是两种不同的角色，却拥有同一个脚本" - 蔡旻佑 《俩人》
和友情不同，爱情是决定终生的旅途。
爱情，是必定有两个人在付出和包容，却不在乎是谁付出得多。 
爱情，是以心换心，少了心，爱情只能成为遗憾。

 
就因为我们拥有了以上两个东西，让我们生活中增添了许多的不肯定，许多的不安。因为，我们再离开了父母的怀抱以后，靠的都是友情和爱情来生存下去。


P.S.

第一次，献给大家。有不足之处，还请朋友们原谅。